its just hit me that im not gonna see my best friend for ages!! claires moving to kingston halls for uni on saturday!! omigoodness!! shes gonna be well grown up and living on her own and on her own!! :'( im gonna miss her sooooo soooo much!!!!! ive spent like the last year with her. :'( im gonna cry so much on saturday!! but im not gonna go round her house to say bye cos that'll be too much . even thou im gonna see her the weekend after its so sad!! :(

xxx

Kim Walker - How He Loves Us

He is jealous for me

Love's like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy
When all of a sudden, I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
and I realize just how beautiful You are and how great your affections are for me.
Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us so.

Yeah, He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves.

So we are His portion and He is our prize,
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If grace is an ocean we're all sinking
So heaven meets earth like a sloppy wet kiss and my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don't have time to maintain these regrets when I think about the way

That he loves us,
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves

He loves us,
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves

Cause He loves us,
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves

Yeah, He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves us
Woah, how He loves

(taken from my diary of paper and pen..)

Dear Diary,

I thought I'd write really neatly today, but I had to rip a page out a sec ago, because I'd failed already!! Seems I've been doing that a lot lately. Failing without even trying not to.

I am so happy that I passed all my subjects!! Another year in a row that I haven't failed one! I'm gonna have to work hard ' music this year thou so that I can get a good grade, but I won't have as many distractions in my music class, it it should be fine as long as I make an effort.

Effort.. that word keeps appearing in my vocab!! (maybe) I'll make it a good thing this year. I'll go running, and i'll get closer to God, and I'll get (good) great grades in music, and write good songs, and be the best that God's made me to be!! But jesus, (I've said this so many times, but it still rings true - ) I NEED YOU SO BAD!! I need you to be my strength, and my voice, and my art, and my desire, and my all!! Because my true inspiration comes from you! And just to re-iterate this, i'm gonna re-write it on my blog online. Word-for word. (even if it doesn't make much sense! lol!)

xxx rachie xxx

Take That - Back For Good (for P)

I guess now its time for me to give up
I feel its time
Got a picture of you beside me
Got youre lipstick mark still on your coffee cup
Got a fist of pure emotion
Got a head of shattered dreams
Gotta leave it, gotta leave it all behind now

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didnt mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever Im wrong just tell me the song and Ill sing it
Youll be right and understood

Unaware but underlined I figured out this story
It wasnt good
But in the corner of my mind I celebrated glory
But that was not to be
In the twist of separation you excelled at being free
Cant you find a little room inside for me

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didnt mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever Im wrong just tell me the song and Ill sing it
Youll be right and understood

And well be together, this time is forever
Well be fighting and forever we will be
So complete in our love
We will never be uncovered again

Whatever I said, whatever I did I didnt mean it
I just want you back for good
Whenever Im wrong just tell me the song and Ill sing it
Youll be right and understood