Hello...

ok, so last time i did the rainbow thing, it looked really cool so i am gonna do it again this time!!!!!

so i didnt do much today, friday was really boring! i went to cc, but clare wasnt there, and niether was half the people!!!

it was like totally empty, which was really anoying . we still had fun, even thou it was only me, stevie, daniel, craig, martha and jo, which isnt much, but we had a laugh.

craig didnt have a clue about will, but i did ask melissa before if he had said anything, and then they both were wondering what i was talking about.

also when i told him, he laughed at me! i mean i might have been a bit stupid, but compaired to him (actually thats an over statement. lol).

i cant wait till easter camp now! its only like, 5 weeks till half term, and thats about the time lukas is coming over too. that is gonna be so much fun.

i think im gonna go now, its the end of my rainbow...got other things to think about this weekend aswell.

bye-bye xxx

Rachel xXx

dear diary,

so i guess me and sam will never go out again. yellow pages are a bit expensive, and i havent got that much cash. lol. ive helped out at the holiday club at church for the last week, and also been down to hampshire to see my grandmas and aunt and cousin jo.

ive had loadsa fn this week, even though i havent spoken to clare, coz everytime i fone her, it goes straight to awnser machine. i am gonna be in the church choir!!! how cool. its gonna be just me, suzie, vicky, and maybe kerry.

i havent spoken to becki for yearssssssssssssss, and i am so glad clare has been here. even thou i havent seen her for weeks either. omgosh...i have a gorgeus new albumn from McFLY!!!!!! its the MOTION IN THE OCEAN one. it is so gooooood. i love almost alllll the songs...

anyway, its almost 10 and i have to be at church by 9 tomoro for the holiday club.

bye bye people...

HELLLOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




im in a gd mood today! everything so far has gone goooood. and the thing about sam has blown over now, which i am relieved because i really dont like being jealous. especially when i have no reason to be!!!





also i was talking to peter in english about sam, and i think he's gonna tell him what i said! luckily, ive got the note that we were writting so he has no proof to any of it! i dont think it would really matter if peter did tell him, but it's just that i was thinking, if we're gonna ever go out again (and he told me this too) then we should keep it a secret because ever time we go out, the next day the whole school knows about it, and i really dont want that to happen.





it makes it so much easier if you have a boif that doesnt go to the same school as you because then you dont have to be around other people critasising you , and going 2aww! they're such a swet couple!2and all that rubbish. it really annoys me(even if i coo at some couple sometimes-i need to stop coz i know how annoying it is!!!).





so i had this idea (just now), what if me and sam where to go out in the half term holidays? i mean that would be good, because you always act different arround people when you first go out, so if we were going out for a week without anyone knowing, then when we come back it wouldnt seem any different! how clever am i!!!





just the thing is, i said to myself when i stopped going out with will that i wouldnt go out with somebody, untill i was really ready- i mean untill i meet somebody i really like. a christian boy. i cant keep going out with non-christians, because if we get too close, and they are still non-believers, then i cant stay with them (you know the whole missionary dating thing and all) because i would be really in love with them, and then have to break up with them(like mariah did).





and that would just be like---the end of the world. i mean how do you get your boif or a boi you fancy, to become a christian without getting pulled down to their level(i mean the non-followers level)? relationships seem so difficult. yet in the movies they look so easy! peter said i am difficult. yh i totally agree with him. i am such a difficult girl! also lukas said i am typical too (and he said it wierd which was really cute!!!).



well i guess some guys will always be the same. even thou i thought sam had changed, maybe he hasnt. people werent making such a big deal out of it except me, so there must be something there.
get back to you later...
bye bye xxx

dear diary,

i found out something about sam today, that even when i think im totally over him, i am really jealous for some reason.

i really hate being like this. i get this sick feeling in my stomach (even thou ihave had that all day coz i was off sick) that is really annoying.

i dont know whats wrong with me. i cant see why sam would do that, and even if he did, what does it matter to me? well apparently it does, and i cant see why.

im gonna go now before i get really worked up. i have a piano lesson soon anyway and i need to email becki. omgosh! superman is on...i am so gonna watch it...

bye x

dear diary,

you know what? i dont care if i dont get a valentines card on the 14. who needs a boi, when ive got jesus!!!!!

hello everyone.
just wanted to put an updated picture of me on my blog so you know what i look like!!!
plz leave a comment!!!
rachel xxx