hey everyone!!!

i havent written in soooooo long.
things have been pretty hectic lately. half term is over already, and i have tests soon! me and sam are as complicated as ever, but WORST! anyway, me and grant are good mates now, which is cool coz despite what people say hes a cool guy believe it or not! he has real character, unlike other people.

me and kerry xx
daniel hasnt been online..i was gonna talk to him about saturday but i cant if hes not online! i hope he comes coz it will be really good just for us to have a day out together. me daniel and clare...al-time friends :D

me and cassie xx
well CU tomoro! im really excited..it shud be good..got a talk ready and everything, so shud be awesome if everyone comes and i put the posters up tomoro morning!! hopefully a few people will read them. even thou there wont be a lot at first, it doesnt matter. we dont really need 12. we only need a few to change things! so it shud be great!!!!

me and sarah xx
my back been hurting all day from the funny back streaches miss did in our dance class yesterday, so im gonna run myself a bath and rrrrreeellllaaaaxxxxxxxxx!!!!!!!!!

see you guys later...leave me a message!!

love, rachie x

Dear Diaries,

things are going great at the moment. i am in the middle of reading a book called 'God Called A Girl' which is really encouraging. its about Mary and how she trusted God throwout all her troubles, and all the days and months and years where she couldn't see what God was doing in her life and what good would come from it.

i have just wrote a really long letter to Becki [about 3 pages long] about camp, and my mum, and Abi and Mez's engagement [yay!] and just about life. hopefully she gets to come over at Christmas. that wud be really cool! i really miss hanging out with her, and i hang out with Clare more than her now and she's supposed to be my best mate! we are still like sisters thou, coz we have known each other for sooo long and really alike.

i went to Clare's yesterday, and dropped off a bible that i am lending her, co for some strange reason her one disappeared on camp. it was really strange coz mine was where i put it, and hers was in the same place so i guess someone picked it up for some reason. but anyway, i meet her boyfriend Joel! he's a really nice guy i understand why she doesn't want to let him go. it must be really hard for her. they have been together for such a long time, and now she knows she shouldn't be going out with him because he's not a christian. i just really pray that he does become one. it would really encourage her to have someone else in her family [sort of] that is in the same situation as she is.

i really need a job! i know i probably;y keep going on about it to everyone, but I'm not exactly going out looking for one. and I've got a feeling I'm not gonna have time until the end of this yr when i get an early break, but who really wants to spend that time working??? i guess i will need it if i am going to take a gap year... i don't even know where I'm gonna go, or if I'm gonna go with a christian organisation. i would love to go with OM. they say you have to go for 2 years, so i don't know if i can. but anyway, it will be really good just to get a piece of the world, and see what God is doing in people's lives other than my own and the people in my area.

anyway, i really should be finishing ... oh yh! my brother went to school today! he's in yr 7 now so i have to go back tomoro!!!...my geography corsework which i have to give in asap!
at the top is a picture of this years camp which was sooo fun!!!

good luck this year to anyone else in year 11 like me, or anyone in school or college, or uni or with any other troubles that come ur way!

just remember...

dont tell God how big your problems are...tell your problems how BIG God is!!!

love always,
Rachel.A xxxxxxxooooooo

heya everyone
i better be carefull who i give this address to because sam almost got this website address the other day in food tech...so everybody---SSSHHHH!!!!!!!
xXx

hiya everyone!
im in wales at the moment, in arthog!
im in an ineternet cafe, so the computers arent so great and i cant get to my piczo site!!!
how unfair.
well i dont have long to go now.
i went quad biking yesterday and today we are going cycling! it was so much fun yesterday even thou i almost killed myself when my bike tumble down a hill from me crashing at high speed...but i am fine! just a bruise on my finger...the angels were really looking out for me yesterday coz my sister crashed aswell and she wasnt hurt! it seems to always happen when my brother prays for our safety, so mabye god is using him for our good.
well i have to go now!
c ya sooon xxxx

About You
full name	Rachel Linda Ayrton
nicknames	rachel, rach, ray-ray.
birthdate	5th May 1992
location	St. George's hospital
height	5.1
hair color	brown with lil' golden streaks
eye color	sea blue
siblings	lil'bro jake and lil sis soozi
pets	my gorgeous rabbit daisy!
worst fear	walking thru the woods with no torch
Favorites
color	hot pink, turqiousy-blue, silver, black
movie	confessions of a teenage drama queen, shriek, the perfect man (ill think of more later)
artist/band	avril lavigne, jack johnson, kelly clarkson, the feeling, the fratellis, the red hot chili peppers, the ordinary boys, maroon 5, mcfly, alicia keys,
songs	whistle for the choir-the fratellis, usher and alicia keys-my boo, kelly clarkson-breakaway, alicia keys-if it aint you, i love you-the ordinary boys, i love it when you call-the feeling, how to save a life-the fray
tv show	friends, the simpsons, my wife and kids, joey, scrubs, 8 simple rules, two and a half men, NCIS, CSI;new york
place to shop	new look, lush, claire's, primark-lol
subject in school	art.
smell	champaigne and roses, sweet strawberries, freshly cut grass, CHOCOLATE!!!
food	pasta, pizza, home-made bread, peanut-butter cookies, peppers!
Have You Ever?
made a prank call?	well i gave my mate the money and the idea but i wud have burst out laughing!
lied?	all the time.
snuck out of the house?	umm...yeah probs
skipped school?	yeah. skol is soooo boring.
ran away?	no. i TRY to keep my head together.
broken the law?	not in a major way. but i have broken Gods law too many times.
done something embarrassing?	all the time!lol.
made yourself cry to get out of trouble?	no not really.
wanted someone you knew you couldnt have?	yeah...
been to a concert?	no! so unfair aint it...
been kissed?	yes.
kissed someone?	yea <3>
been in love?	yeah. but it was never gonna be.
cheated on someone?	no way. thats really unfair.
been cheated on?	yes. and guess what ...he asked me out again! fat chance.
had a hard time getting over someone?	yeah, but i am over them now.
Do You?
color your hair?	no i love my hair colour!
have any tattoos?	no. their grouse man. but i do doodle on my palms ;P
have any piercings?	my ear loobs, and i really wanna get my nose done too!!!
have any bad habits?	fancying really stupid boys that are totally wrong for me.lol. and biting my nails!
wish you were someone else?	no i love being me.
play an instrument?	piano.
wear cologne/perfume?	impulses!!!! and ocean cool!
own a thong?	no. my dad wud kill me!
wear contacts/glasses?	yeah but not very often i dont need them all the time
Who?
would you like to kiss?	some really fit movie star like..i think ill keep that to myself!!!
makes you laugh?	people from camp like daniel and luke, and some people from my school and all my mates...basically loads!!!
makes you smile?	sam!
do you tell everything to?	my bestest mate becki!!!!
has a crush on you?	kierran. hes so sweet but totally not my type.
can make you feel better no matter what?	freedom, becki, daniel, clare and others...
More About You
what song makes you cry?	alot of worship song when im in the right mood.
what song makes you happy?	pablo nutini's 'rewind', the fratellis 'whistle for the choir' and james morrison's 'you give me something' also the ordinary boys' 'i love you'
what makes you happy?	romance and girly movies, and being with people i love XD
do you wish on stars?	sometimes...*
When Was The Last Time You...?
drank alcohol?	at a party with my mates. lol
smoked?	never!!!!
kissed someone?	at easter camp <3>
went to the mall?	today!!!
were on stage?	performing at my school with my dance group
cut your hair?	the start of summer
stole something?	i nicked a sweets off my sis!lol
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hey everyone!
its rainy outside, and it has been so sunny aswell..but i love the rain. it feeds the flowers and keeps the earth happy! [soz if i sound a bit like a nature freak-im not its just that it does] still its may, so what do u expect.wow! i cant believe im 15!!!!!!!
it seems like ive been waiting aaaages for my b-day to cum..supose thats a good thing thou coz then i stay a teenager for longer. i wud love to be a teenager forever, stay really young but get to live my own life instead of being controlled by my parents all the time!my mum the other day practically chose an outfit for me---it was pink and green! eh! it was a nice skirt, even thou i never where skirts anymore appart from school, but the top was so barbie-like...it was pink strips with strawberries on!i can imagins a 5 yr old wearing it, but not a 15 year old!!!
it made me look fat too...and now-a-days i hate wearing pink---its to girly and it gets boring wearing it all the time--pink is so stereo typed for girls these days.anyway, i wud still wear the top, maybe, but i just hated the fact that my mum chose it.i hate it when she tries to control me its so annoying.i love my mum, but i just dont wanna be like her [sounds mean i know] she was born in the country side, and being in the city eventually made her depressed.
she couldnt deal with the stress of being a full-time mother and working at a primary school. i dont want that to happen to me. i dont want to be shy like my mum is not. i want to be totally different, be my own person and stand out from the rest of my family. i have so much in common with my mum its scary. i bet if i was born in the country too i wud have turned out just like her.
but i havent. im much stronger, and i have my own free will. i can stand up for what i belivee in, and i dont let life get me down. i wish so much that my mum was a strong person right now, but she isnt. she used to be, and i used to look up to her, but how she is now, it just depresses me, and i just want her to be like she was before, so i cud be able to see something strong in her again.

this blog has been so emotional!!!!!
im gonna go now,
will write soon,
bye xxx

ive given up doing coursework

so im gonna just chill out now...

bye bye now xxx ooo

hiya!
im really bored at the moment so i thought that i might just update my blogger, and say what happenin!!!
im [trying] to re-write my great expectations for english, but it is so boring im finding myself drifting off into a daydream, so to keep myself occupied, im just writting a quick few words.
this week has been so much fun and it so sunny now im ashamed to be sitting indoors on my stupid computer!!!!!
i really miss becki, but hopefully, she might be coming over for xmas, and if that happens she will probably have to stay coz it is so much for flights and stuff, and that means i can finally make up my mind and go on easter camp next year with her, then if she stays go the year after to july with her and clare toooo!!!
and she could also be a teenage leader next yr which will be loads of fun!
me and clare are hgetting on so well now. i really dont want to go off with becki like some user, but she is my best mate, and clare has been like a best mate to me over the past year or so.

also hopefully we r gonna be meeting up in two saturdays time so shud be funnnn.
i have to go to the post box soon to post my letter to becki and my application form for teenage leader at camp this year.
this year has gone so fast! cant believe i only have one more term leaft and then i hve one more year and im done for school all together!!!!!!!!! unless i decide to go to 6th form.

emily was going on at me not to go. i was actually considering going, but then i havent really looked at all my options, and i dont even know what ireally wanna be when i leave school. i might wanna go to uni, but i dont know what i wud study. probably french and art. also i havent thought of a coreography idea for my dance. most of the girls in my dance class, have, but everytime i think of something, it just sounds so stupid, and random. i hope something comes to me soon or im stuck.

i guess i am just putting all these things in the hands of God to sort it out. i really dont know what sort of life im gonna have when i leave school, but it'll come to me.

better go do my coursework.
bye bye
rach xxx

Hi EvErYoNe!!!!!!!!!!

just come back form easter camp and i am sooo hyper!!!!!
it was so much fun and i got to catch up on a lot of old mates.
i really enjoyed skatting, and even thou i have purple bruises on my knees i am sooo going again!
i might go for my birthday but im not sure what skate rinks are near me.
i will have to check it out. i am loving being back at school and i have loads to tell my friends!
i am so gonna miss them all when we have to leave at the end of year 11!!! i might be moving from this house---i will still keep in touch and keep posting!!!

♥i so have to tell you lot about giovanni but i want to keep this one to myself♥
heres a little hint anyway...

u get the picture? <33
bye rach xxx

hiya people,
just an average post here. me and sam are doing ok...except sophie was gonna tell me something but she isnt online!!! i just know it was about sam coz she asked me if i wud be online right after she finished talking to him.
so predictable. i have a fairly good idea what it was, but i still wanna know just incase ive got it all wrong. i will c her in school tomorow anyway, so it doesnt really matter but i like to think things thru at night best.
i am really glad me and lukas are talking again. we kinda got caught up in our lives, and forgot about the promise we made to eachother that we wouldnt forget. i hate not seeing ppl anymore. being down the fields reminds me so much of jack, and now i really miss him. he always made my day. even if he just said hi to me now and again it wont be so bad, but after all we had, its just ended in nothing, and i dont even get i hi, or an ocational text from him.
its like hes forgotten all about me without a trace. i am so glad i have sam now. he makes me feel so wierd, i dunno how to explain it. i just feel safe arround him.
emily was going on about how he's in love with me, and how we suit. she kept going 'look at them two!'. lol. well i really wanna speak to jack now. i always tell him stuff that noone knows about, and everything he's told me, ive kept total secret.
i wish lukas cud understand me properly. maybe i shud just try and see if he understands me properly.

well, sophie's finally come online, so im gonna speak to her.
c ya later!!!
all my love, rach xxxxx

Hello...

ok, so last time i did the rainbow thing, it looked really cool so i am gonna do it again this time!!!!!

so i didnt do much today, friday was really boring! i went to cc, but clare wasnt there, and niether was half the people!!!

it was like totally empty, which was really anoying . we still had fun, even thou it was only me, stevie, daniel, craig, martha and jo, which isnt much, but we had a laugh.

craig didnt have a clue about will, but i did ask melissa before if he had said anything, and then they both were wondering what i was talking about.

also when i told him, he laughed at me! i mean i might have been a bit stupid, but compaired to him (actually thats an over statement. lol).

i cant wait till easter camp now! its only like, 5 weeks till half term, and thats about the time lukas is coming over too. that is gonna be so much fun.

i think im gonna go now, its the end of my rainbow...got other things to think about this weekend aswell.

bye-bye xxx

Rachel xXx

dear diary,

so i guess me and sam will never go out again. yellow pages are a bit expensive, and i havent got that much cash. lol. ive helped out at the holiday club at church for the last week, and also been down to hampshire to see my grandmas and aunt and cousin jo.

ive had loadsa fn this week, even though i havent spoken to clare, coz everytime i fone her, it goes straight to awnser machine. i am gonna be in the church choir!!! how cool. its gonna be just me, suzie, vicky, and maybe kerry.

i havent spoken to becki for yearssssssssssssss, and i am so glad clare has been here. even thou i havent seen her for weeks either. omgosh...i have a gorgeus new albumn from McFLY!!!!!! its the MOTION IN THE OCEAN one. it is so gooooood. i love almost alllll the songs...

anyway, its almost 10 and i have to be at church by 9 tomoro for the holiday club.

bye bye people...

HELLLOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




im in a gd mood today! everything so far has gone goooood. and the thing about sam has blown over now, which i am relieved because i really dont like being jealous. especially when i have no reason to be!!!





also i was talking to peter in english about sam, and i think he's gonna tell him what i said! luckily, ive got the note that we were writting so he has no proof to any of it! i dont think it would really matter if peter did tell him, but it's just that i was thinking, if we're gonna ever go out again (and he told me this too) then we should keep it a secret because ever time we go out, the next day the whole school knows about it, and i really dont want that to happen.





it makes it so much easier if you have a boif that doesnt go to the same school as you because then you dont have to be around other people critasising you , and going 2aww! they're such a swet couple!2and all that rubbish. it really annoys me(even if i coo at some couple sometimes-i need to stop coz i know how annoying it is!!!).





so i had this idea (just now), what if me and sam where to go out in the half term holidays? i mean that would be good, because you always act different arround people when you first go out, so if we were going out for a week without anyone knowing, then when we come back it wouldnt seem any different! how clever am i!!!





just the thing is, i said to myself when i stopped going out with will that i wouldnt go out with somebody, untill i was really ready- i mean untill i meet somebody i really like. a christian boy. i cant keep going out with non-christians, because if we get too close, and they are still non-believers, then i cant stay with them (you know the whole missionary dating thing and all) because i would be really in love with them, and then have to break up with them(like mariah did).





and that would just be like---the end of the world. i mean how do you get your boif or a boi you fancy, to become a christian without getting pulled down to their level(i mean the non-followers level)? relationships seem so difficult. yet in the movies they look so easy! peter said i am difficult. yh i totally agree with him. i am such a difficult girl! also lukas said i am typical too (and he said it wierd which was really cute!!!).



well i guess some guys will always be the same. even thou i thought sam had changed, maybe he hasnt. people werent making such a big deal out of it except me, so there must be something there.
get back to you later...
bye bye xxx

dear diary,

i found out something about sam today, that even when i think im totally over him, i am really jealous for some reason.

i really hate being like this. i get this sick feeling in my stomach (even thou ihave had that all day coz i was off sick) that is really annoying.

i dont know whats wrong with me. i cant see why sam would do that, and even if he did, what does it matter to me? well apparently it does, and i cant see why.

im gonna go now before i get really worked up. i have a piano lesson soon anyway and i need to email becki. omgosh! superman is on...i am so gonna watch it...

bye x

dear diary,

you know what? i dont care if i dont get a valentines card on the 14. who needs a boi, when ive got jesus!!!!!

hello everyone.
just wanted to put an updated picture of me on my blog so you know what i look like!!!
plz leave a comment!!!
rachel xxx

Dear Diary,

havent spoken in quite a while, but im here now. no worries.

been pretty busy, had a gd yr so far, and its not even near the end of january yet!

so ive started my new youth group at church, and ill be going again tomorow.

my sister lost her phone the other week, so she keep trying to nick mine!!! so umm... yh.

my new youth group. its gd, ive only been once, but i know loads more people now. so i might have a lie in tomorow!!! i can do my bible reading and have a hot bath, and then play on sims with no disturbance from my annoying siblings!!! that shud be fun. my own little haven on a sunday morning!. or i could go to church 3 times... but at least ive got a choice now. mabye ill go for the first option...sounds more interesting!!!



so single life is cool...also not fancying anyone is gd to, its a bit confusing at first, but ive got used to it now and im satisfied. i dont need anyone right now. ive got gd mates and that all i need. right now it just seems that boys muck up everything. no affense, but thats how it is right now.maybe ill find a good guy when i get to college...which is only 2 yrs away now...less even.

well, anyway, ill go now. here is a cool pic of me, i look different from how i normally do, but still gd.



chat later. and plz if anyone wants to, check out my site...http://www.rachelsdizzylittleworld.piczo.com



bye bye...keep the faith people!!!

rachel

xxx