HIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!

first off.....Happy New Year ppl!!!!
hope every1 had a grrrrrr8 Christmas, and shared precious time with your family and friends, i know i have so far and i cant waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaait for tomoz!!! im going to a house party for 3 days!!! will tell you all bout it when i get back. so today ive been to christ church, cool service as usual, and stayed in this evening seen as ive got revision to do for my Science test when i get back and i cant do it this week coz i will be away!!!!! But its been fun. ive finished my Psycho [finallY!] even thou it probably aint any gd coz i was just talking a whole load of crap, but still, ill just hand it in and hope miss will let me re-draft it.

this yr hasnt been that gd, seen as my mum is ill, and i overheard my dad in a phonecall had a rough time with his church, and support from them and stuff, and u know there where load of times this yr where i wanted to cry my heart out, but for sum reason, i kept it in, even hwen i didnt want to.

wierd that, but anyway...

Thiss house party better be gd coz i need some gd laughs to start the yr off. maybe then it will bring me sum joy instead of bad news!!!

God bless all newly weds, and couples stuggling. plz keep it together, and young teens, dont give up faith. put ur trust in jesus, coz he's the only one who's kept a smile on my face this yr and will continue to .

think before you act.

dont give in to sorrow.

let your good memories stay in your mind, and focus on them. thats when the gd stuff comes out of you and reflect thru others.

DONT do something stupid. dont hold grudges on ppl.
life's too short to hate ppl.

it only teares you up inside and fills you with hate.

and most of all, remember the guy who died for you.

the guy who loves you whatever you do.

loving him is where the gd stuff comes from.

coz loves the most powerful thing in the world.

God bless you all.

hope the new yr brings you new life and satisfaction.

Rachel
xxx

hellooooo,

this is my 20th post, and today is the 20th of december!!!
only 5 days till CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
wow, i sooooooooo cant wait now...im getting my new sony ericsson too!!!!
i cant waitttt coz also, i am going to the new yr party on the 1st of jan.
gonna see all my mates from camp...daniel and andrew are gonna be there...they are really funni, and great people too.
im gonna go soon.
been to bluewater today!!! it was really fun.
we went to loadsa good shops, got all the rest of my presents and i am happy with them too!
gotta go,
bye bye.
rachel xxx

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#Today was cool... we had loadsa fun!!! funni coz LeWiShAm isnt that gr8, but atleast we got a day off school and i spent it with some of the best people i know...like kieren...i cant believe Emily DoEsNt fancy him!!! he used to, and i think (and hope! hehe!!) he fancies me!1!1!1!

he is sooo sweet, and Emily and Amanda where taking the mic out of him!!! poor k. anyway, im gonna go now.

bibi peoplez.

Rachel xxx

wish i was with that certain person....lol.

dear diary,
today was gd. sam was bullying me again! stupid boi. he was being so childish. i really hate him when hes like that and i wish we could be back to normal. just good mates no trauma between us. all this would never have happened if i hadnt have said that i liked him agian when i didnt. i was so stupid al now i cant stand him. he just bugs me all the time and it used to be just a little game, bu tnow it really pisses me off. i need to chiil out.
c ya l8as.
rachel xxx

HELLO...IM BORED SO I AM MAKING THIS POST INSTEAD OF TALKING RUBISH TO MY SISTER!!!!!!(as you can see im a bit hyper right now so beware!!!-->funni icon coming up.....bluuuuub!)

dear diary,
today i was laughing ...again!!! lol. man, this week has been crazy. sam was egnorin me for some reason at break, then come break he was realllllly nice, and all over me. that boy puts a smile on my face, and i dont mind if i hardly see him, i know when i do, hes all i need...well, almost.lol.
at dance we just watched the nutcracker and took notes, and talked about it. those lessons are cool, coz we can just talk, and me and emz just laugh.boy i was hype.sam kept givin me funni looks like 'i have such a crazy girlf!'
and we also watched romeo and juliet in english! wow! so cool...
...shame lukas dont like it. i really thought he was my romeo...
oh well
l8as
Rachel xxx

dear diary,

today was gd. i have been laughing alllll week man! i was hype today, and yesterday, and monday too!!! i hope it lasts coz i wanna be in a gd mood for friday. i am speaking to clare at the moe on msn. i love msn! i love talking to all my mates !!!!! wish lukas was on....

...even thou he was jarring the other day, im in the mood to speak to him. he means well and is sooo sweet. i cant just egnore him. i think hes one of those very romantic types. a bit sensative. but hes buff. a bit like romeo...<3>

well being with sam makes me smile... and emily told me the other dau that jax fancies me (dont tell her i said..im not supposed to let him know-->so you didnt hear it from me-->right?), and i havent given it much thought, but i did once think we were good for eachother, but just thought it was some crazy, dreamy crush, that wudnt ever happen. clares bing crazy. lmao.

i hav piano today, and club.yipee. that boi, fix.(wierd name init???)he's so funni. he crackes me up and im already in pieces from lunch. anyways, so soz but i gotta go. i got club now, and i have to eat tea, practice for piano, then go to piano, then get all my food tech. corsework done befor i go a bed!!!!!!!!

so ill c ya l8as.

bye bye
god bless.

Rachel xxx

oooh baby...
how do i say it????
how do i tell you???? i never ever wanna break your heart..
i never wanna cheat...
i never wanted to be in this situation. i am so sick of myself!!! why do i get into these situations????????????
how do i stop myself from giving into to temptation. i know what i feel !!!!! i just cant express it coz i know it will mix things up even more

i p r o m i s e d y o u i w o u l d b e f a i t h f u l . . .
i p r o m i s e d y o u i l o v e d y o u . . .
b u t i w a s s t up i d e n o u g h t o t a k e t h e r i s k a n d n o w i f i t e l l y o u i w i l l s u r l e y l o o s e y o u . . .
why do i do this to my self!!????????
baby plz believe me...i never eant for any of this to happen...but i gotta let you go.....
plz dont hate me... i will always care and need you in my life. like mybest friend i want you to always be there for me coz i will always be there for you.......................

Dear Diary,
i have just been reading about 2 chapters of Shannon Kubiak's 'God Called A GIrl'.
some of the stuff she writes is so inspiring. She quotes loads of verses which is a real help coz then i'm not focussing on her words alone, but it leads straight to god's word.That really is the message she is trying to get at.
You know, i know loadsa people say this but it is actually really important for me to read my bible. It was really encoraging to read with all my camp mates. (even with Zack and Darnell screaming their heads off at eachother over cars!) And i learnt so much from all the talks . Even with Chloe gone we still learnt stuff about God, and our faith in him, and trust that he will do what is right and what needs doing.
it is such a blessing to see some of my pals like craig and clare, who have only recently became christians in the last few years praying.they looked so full of hope, and love for God and eagerness to do what s right.
Even with Becki! And she has been a christian probably the same as i have and i had npo idea how much she struggles some times. and when we prayed together, she sounded so lost, and in need, i couldn't believe it. i thought she being the stronger christian but then i see her asking chloe for help and prayer. i mean what kind of christian friend was i, if my best mate couldn't tell me when something was up?
Well now i guess we can talk to eachother more, andopen up. Becki still keeps alot bottled up when i talk to her, and i'm sure that if we saw eachother as much as me and my school mates do we would have no secrets and we would have an even closer relationship than we do now.we'd be super close.
Sometimes i think to myself, how much time i waste when i'm with her. time we could spend chatting abpout so much stuff other than boys! i'm not joking. that is all we talk about! well not surprised. at our age guys are on our brains all the time.
so why cant we talk spiritual? well i woill sort this out and get a decent convo going with her asap. well when we nxt speak.
well like any human being, i have to get sleep.
c ya l8az.
God bless ya. xxx

hey peepz.
you know i am only writting the coz i am sooooo bored.here is a pic to keep you interested coz woth the activness in my house right now, you would have been asleep ages ago. i am only kept going coz i have been typing. suprised i even bothered to get up this morning there wouldn't be much point.
and yet again i still forget to call my mates. if you are reading this you better call me otherwise i will forget again. ...wow! i am going somewhere now so c ya l8az!
rachella xxx

Hey everyone!
ive just got back from camp and was sooooooo tired yesterday. it was a wicked two weeks. switzerland was soo beautiful! i meet this really cute guy called lucus. i miss him now. also i kinda miss tyrone. lol. well he was the only guy my age that i could relate to so i guess i got used to him being around.
on the last day we went to this german island. and also to this butterfly house. it was soo cool there were hundreds of beautiful butterflies everywhere. we got loadsa pictures of em all. i really liked this blue and black one. it was propa cool.
camp was also fun. i was a teenage leader this year so we all had alot of work to do but we got told that we were the best group of teenages leaders ever, so that was really incoraging.
well me and clare had alot of fun mucking around, and so did me, nina, stevie and daniel when we went to the zoo. the zoo inself was boring, but feeding the monkeys polos was loadsa fun and a but stupid mind you but who cares!!!
i always miss camp when i get back, and now i have that degrading feeling. i am ssssssssssssssoooooooooooooooooooooo bored!!!!
well anyways, im gonna go. we might be going out on our bikes so at least that will be mildly instresting.
lol
c ya l8az.
rachella xxxx

Dear Diaries,
If you are reading this blog now, which you are, lol ,i am on holiday in switzerland. i have gone to a village near lake constance(and dont ask me for that in german i am rubish!!!!). this saturday i am going to sleepover at my church on the friday, today, and then i will have to get up @ 4>>> zzzzzzz and go to the airport. i am gonna be sooooo tired and the flight is at 7.15 ...zzzzzzzzzzzz...well craig aint coming and i aint sure if he is coming camp either. i havent seen him him ages, well i see him around skol but not really. acctually i havent spoken to tyrone in a long time either. well, i am gonna be so busy the next two weeks coz straight after a week in switzerland i will be striagth on to camp. i am gonna be a teenage leader there!!! cant wait. im gonna miss becki though. go to my website and you can check out loadsa pics of people from camp and some info on them and what we get up to. also please sign the shout box so i know who you are!!! love hearing from you guys. also there is info on my band. we havent decidaed on the name yet, it may be randomise, but who knows. maybe when i get back i will have a name....http://www.xxrachellaxx.piczo.com/ so every1 will have to put up with nothingness for two weeks!!!
get back to about that little sleepover thing we are gonna organise a.s.a.p....
well i aint got much else to say now... plz visit my site. i will put a link on for my band site, but i havent got much on there so dont expect loadsa stuff!!!!! love avril! shes the queen of da world (says jax> love ya hunni!!!!)
well i better go ...
c ya guys l8a...
rachelxxx

hello people!!!
new pic of me here>>> i have just got my hair cut so it is much shorter but this is still a good one. got a new webpage aswell. ive got lots of cool stuff bout me in there but its not totally complete so i will try and get ore time on my comp. i am out all day tommorow coz im going shopping with my mates, and in between that i will be online to jax. i love going online with him. he is the best guy a girl could have...
...love you jaxy! www.xxrachellaxx.piczo.com

Dear Diary,
I guess today was one of those britney moment days. When i stink my head into my pool and just get lost in the thoughts that cramp my world, thoughts about sam, and jack. Thoughts about tyrone and pearce.
In an everlasting second that seems to take up so much time yet so little. I find myself thinking out of this worlds imagination span. Out of the polluted material earth that takes love for granted. And the only place i find myself is sitting next to you.
Looking into your eyes. Staring into you deep blues like there is no tommorow. Like the world is burning up around us even though we dont even know it because we are so caught up in the intensity of this moment. Together at last and so eager to stay this way we try to forget everything else.
Like nothing else matters nobody else cud take to a better place than you do. You take me to paradise. Every time i look into your eyes i see the world as beautiful as the first day. And i would like nothing better than to share it with you...

dear diary,
i so cant believe it. it is the middle of a heat wave and i have a cold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i mean, how crazy can u get. i know becki has a cold , but she is more likely to its the middle of winter in sydney
i mean, what is this world coming to!!!!!!!
also another bad thing, swiz camp is in less than two weeks!!!!
this time next week i will be running off my feet packing. i cant have a cold then , i will totally die!!!!!!
this is such a total nightmare. i said to my dad that i order to get better i will have to eat all the orange in the house. mind u, i probably will. i do anyway.
going swimming with grant yesterday wasso not a good idea. i mean, hello what was i thinking!!! there is no reason to go swiming other than i didnt want to make out that i was standing him up. but then mabye that would have got him off my back the night after when he would stop asking me on im 'when can we go again? is monday ok?' NO grant. i am too busy being ill to get neumonia from clorine filled cramped, monday morning-in-the-holidays-where-every1-is-in-a-heatwave water!!! my swimming pool at home is clearer than that!!!
seriously its mega cool, and you can see straight thru it---anyway. enough of my constant babbling and here is a real cool picture that you need (and i mean need) to see. it is totally cute so i will leave you with this romantic little thought...

dear diary,
today has been a thinker. there is so little to do that i find myself just, plain, thinking.
we went to christ church.it was good. we didnt go into the sunday skol but we will next time which will be in september. most churches don't hav a service in the holidays. well they do have social lives too!
i soooo cant wait to go to switzerland now! we are having a meeting about it soon and tyrone will be there so i will have to make up with him then.
i really need to chat to sam. i have alot to say to him and i realy wanna get it together so i can fill this little sam-shaped hole in my heart......i gotta breakaway .........breakaway from all the mess that is in my life and all the people who are parannoyed. jax was so sweet and always is. i wish i cud just stay with him all the time. hes the nicest most understanding boi i know. he is so funny. he makes me laugh at the simple things and makes me believe that the world isn't full of such back-stabbers as i thought there was. he is the one and only person that i would love to spend all my time with. so many people in my skol take him for granted. while every1 was fussing over chloe going, no-body acctually relised that jack had already gone. no-body cared that the thing that was missing in our school was him. i cud always feel something that was not there, and so could every1 else but no-body took a minute to think about him. i am sooo glad i have his msn address now. i think i would die if it weren't for people like jack. they add little sparks of joy to an ordinary day.i am so greatful to all thepeople i can think of that are like that on camp people like william and the dixons that even though they don't know it they are so smiley all the time and just fill ever1 with joy. people like nina and giovani, and kiara, and crispin, and nana, and david, and steven, and mez.
these are the people that i want to be with all the time. these are the people who i want to be. i long for the day when every1 can say 'i can do all things through he who strengthens me'.
well i gotta go now. c you guys l8az. rachel xxxxxxxxx

Dear Diary,
today was the last day of skol, so this is officially my diaries for the summer holidays this year>>>2006. so today was kol. jack and chloe are gone so i and every1 else will miss the loads. i have been texting jack the last couple of days and he is really sweet. theres not much like that i can say for pearce. he gets on my nerves!!! he is always trying to take picture of me and mucking around. i do that with sam - but i hate him doing it with me! cant he get it into his head----- I DONT LIKE HIM WE ARE NOT GOING OUT!!!!!!!!
I HATE HIM SOO MUCH NOW. i gotta calm down. everything i say to him he thinks that i like him. he has no idea how to treat a girl and i dont want anything to do with him.he is always texting me-like i want to awnser.no! i dont ! leave me alone!!!
i try to be nice to him but he always takes it the wrong way.
and if he is reading this now, im sorry but just cant get the picture can u??? we are not going out so stop trying to flirt wiv me it aint working. go find some other sad little girl to torture with you stupid chat, and stop doing my head in!!!!!!
anywayz, back to the good life. if your reading this jack, hi hunni miss ya sooo much. your the best mate a gurl cud have!!! keep in touch...x x x...
...and sam, ive made up my mind. i need you so much. pearce is so jarring. when he came round the other day i was deliberatly talking about you so he wud be jealous and back off!!! lol. i need ya sam. no matter what i say i will always love you deep down inside. dont ever forget that!!! miss you whenever i am away from you... ...wanna be with you.
just wanna be sitting next to you wherever...
...whenever... just wanna be next to you.
you make me feel so...
...beautifull inside!!!
lol
rachel
x x x

dear diary,
me and my mates , sarah,sophie and amanda-emily never comes, went to bromley today aftre skol. i bought soozie a b-day prezzie it was this little buch of pink and black shag bands and one has a lil' pink guitar onit. i also got a small black(really hot) vest top from pineapple, and this cute ring that was only £1.50 (which was all the change i had leaft) how cool. tyrone still has my wwjd wrist band and i need it for sunday> its my baptism! its lyk one of the most important things to me and if i don't have it on my baptism...
I WILL BE CRAZY FOR THE REST OF MY LYF!!!!
not really, but it is important. whatever happens no-one can take jesus away from me and thats all that really matters.
love you lord!
x
ps hi to pearce>>>thinking of you! e-mail me!!!

Hiya !
rachel speakin here>>>this is me>>>
cool or what?! i look a bit different now but i am still the same person.
today was cool. i was graffitiing in everyone's hands. love hearts everywhere!!! lol. hey check out my website! this is the first pic u will see( after the welcome page) all bout me on one little site click here!!>>>
http://mydizzylittleworld.piczo.com or http://xxcrazygalrxx.piczo.com
i also have loads other peoples websites, there are links there.
so go to it and sign my shout box pplz!!

Hey this is rachel here! welcome to my blog. this has loadsa stuff bout me and my diaries too. its updated every day(apart from when i am away on camp-i will update you when i get back).
luv ya all
rachel
xxx