dear diary,

me and josh have been going out for 3 weeks now!! hes soo amazing, and i love him!! so much!! bless him.. he keeps worrying about our future and me going to uni out of london !! i dont wanna be away from him, but at the same time i need my freedom! weve decided to get married when we finish uni :) but it might be at different times that we finish, since im going on a gap year and probably doing a foundation year before my actual course

i dunno thou.. i dunno if God wants me to go to uni, or whether i should do mission work, or whether i should just marry Josh :) i dont know which one would make me happier.. probably marrying Josh but id still need a job while hes at uni so ill need some qualifications.. i dunno! im leaving it up to God. gonna apply for photography in uni :) might apply for half london unis and half other places. that way ill know where God wants me to be.. with josh or wants me to wait. i dunno! its up to him :) he knows best :)

im gonna re apply now since someone deleted my account lol

xxx