dear diary,

yesterday i was pretty depressed. and it wasnt even with a reason.. i mean, i was kinda lonely, and was really emotional on sunday, but it wasnt that bad! im not even realy upset about anything.. it was so wierd! it fet like a desease had come over me and i wasnt sure what to do about it . i really really hope mum's depression isnt genetic.. i would hate to be in her state. its just not real living ! and its horrible! i want to be independant and happy and have lots of people arround me who love me. i have nothing to complain about.

but anyway, today i wrote a song! i had already written a few lyrics a few weeks ago, and i formed some really nice chords combinations while practising, and then put the two together !! it sounds great. i just wish i had a band and could record my songs.

anyway, im meeting emily and going to chris and jennie's later, :)

bye byes xxx