hey everyone!
its rainy outside, and it has been so sunny aswell..but i love the rain. it feeds the flowers and keeps the earth happy! [soz if i sound a bit like a nature freak-im not its just that it does] still its may, so what do u expect.wow! i cant believe im 15!!!!!!!
it seems like ive been waiting aaaages for my b-day to cum..supose thats a good thing thou coz then i stay a teenager for longer. i wud love to be a teenager forever, stay really young but get to live my own life instead of being controlled by my parents all the time!my mum the other day practically chose an outfit for me---it was pink and green! eh! it was a nice skirt, even thou i never where skirts anymore appart from school, but the top was so barbie-like...it was pink strips with strawberries on!i can imagins a 5 yr old wearing it, but not a 15 year old!!!
it made me look fat too...and now-a-days i hate wearing pink---its to girly and it gets boring wearing it all the time--pink is so stereo typed for girls these days.anyway, i wud still wear the top, maybe, but i just hated the fact that my mum chose it.i hate it when she tries to control me its so annoying.i love my mum, but i just dont wanna be like her [sounds mean i know] she was born in the country side, and being in the city eventually made her depressed.
she couldnt deal with the stress of being a full-time mother and working at a primary school. i dont want that to happen to me. i dont want to be shy like my mum is not. i want to be totally different, be my own person and stand out from the rest of my family. i have so much in common with my mum its scary. i bet if i was born in the country too i wud have turned out just like her.
but i havent. im much stronger, and i have my own free will. i can stand up for what i belivee in, and i dont let life get me down. i wish so much that my mum was a strong person right now, but she isnt. she used to be, and i used to look up to her, but how she is now, it just depresses me, and i just want her to be like she was before, so i cud be able to see something strong in her again.

this blog has been so emotional!!!!!
im gonna go now,
will write soon,
bye xxx