dear diary,
today has been a thinker. there is so little to do that i find myself just, plain, thinking.
we went to christ church.it was good. we didnt go into the sunday skol but we will next time which will be in september. most churches don't hav a service in the holidays. well they do have social lives too!
i soooo cant wait to go to switzerland now! we are having a meeting about it soon and tyrone will be there so i will have to make up with him then.
i really need to chat to sam. i have alot to say to him and i realy wanna get it together so i can fill this little sam-shaped hole in my heart......i gotta breakaway .........breakaway from all the mess that is in my life and all the people who are parannoyed. jax was so sweet and always is. i wish i cud just stay with him all the time. hes the nicest most understanding boi i know. he is so funny. he makes me laugh at the simple things and makes me believe that the world isn't full of such back-stabbers as i thought there was. he is the one and only person that i would love to spend all my time with. so many people in my skol take him for granted. while every1 was fussing over chloe going, no-body acctually relised that jack had already gone. no-body cared that the thing that was missing in our school was him. i cud always feel something that was not there, and so could every1 else but no-body took a minute to think about him. i am sooo glad i have his msn address now. i think i would die if it weren't for people like jack. they add little sparks of joy to an ordinary day.i am so greatful to all thepeople i can think of that are like that on camp people like william and the dixons that even though they don't know it they are so smiley all the time and just fill ever1 with joy. people like nina and giovani, and kiara, and crispin, and nana, and david, and steven, and mez.
these are the people that i want to be with all the time. these are the people who i want to be. i long for the day when every1 can say 'i can do all things through he who strengthens me'.
well i gotta go now. c you guys l8az. rachel xxxxxxxxx